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I have now reached a period of my life when I |
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| can give dates. I left Baltimore, and went to live |
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| with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael's, in |
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| March, 1832. It was now more than seven years |
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| since I lived with him in the family of my old mas- |
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| ter, on Colonel Lloyd's plantation. We of course |
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| were now almost entire strangers to each other. He |
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| was to me a new master, and I to him a new slave. |
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| I was ignorant of his temper and disposition; he |
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| was equally so of mine. A very short time, however, |
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| brought us into full acquaintance with each other. |
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| I was made acquainted with his wife not less than |
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| with himself. They were well matched, being equally |
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| mean and cruel. I was now, for the first time during |
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| a space of more than seven years, made to feel the |
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| painful gnawings of hunger—a something which I |
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| had not experienced before since I left Colonel |
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| Lloyd's plantation. It went hard enough with me |
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| then, when I could look back to no period at which |
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| I had enjoyed a sufficiency. It was tenfold harder |
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| after living in Master Hugh's family, where I had |
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| always had enough to eat, and of that which was |
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| good. I have said Master Thomas was a mean man. |
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| He was so. Not to give a slave enough to eat, is |
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| regarded as the most aggravated development of |
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| meanness even among slaveholders. The rule is, no |
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| matter how coarse the food, only let there be enough |
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| of it. This is the theory; and in the part of Maryland |
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| from which I came, it is the general practice,—though |
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| there are many exceptions. Master Thomas gave us |
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| enough of neither coarse nor fine food. There were |
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| four slaves of us in the kitchen—my sister Eliza, my |
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| aunt Priscilla, Henny, and myself; and we were al- |
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| lowed less than a half of a bushel of corn-meal per |
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| week, and very little else, either in the shape of |
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| meat or vegetables. It was not enough for us to |
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| subsist upon. We were therefore reduced to the |
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| wretched necessity of living at the expense of our |
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| neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing, |
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| whichever came handy in the time of need, the one |
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| being considered as legitimate as the other. A great |
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| many times have we poor creatures been nearly |
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| perishing with hunger, when food in abundance lay |
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| mouldering in the safe and smoke-house, and our |
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| pious mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that |
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| mistress and her husband would kneel every morn- |
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| ing, and pray that God would bless them in basket |
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| and store! |
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Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one |
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| destitute of every element of character commanding |
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| respect. My master was one of this rare sort. I do |
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| not know of one single noble act ever performed by |
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| him. The leading trait in his character was mean- |
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| ness; and if there were any other element in his |
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| nature, it was made subject to this. He was mean; |
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| and, like most other mean men, he lacked the ability |
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| to conceal his meanness. Captain Auld was not born |
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| a slaveholder. He had been a poor man, master only |
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| of a Bay craft. He came into possession of all his |
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| slaves by marriage; and of all men, adopted slave- |
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| holders are the worst. He was cruel, but cowardly. |
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| He commanded without firmness. In the enforce- |
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| ment of his rules, he was at times rigid, and at times |
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| lax. At times, he spoke to his slaves with the firmness |
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| of Napoleon and the fury of a demon; at other times, |
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| he might well be mistaken for an inquirer who had |
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| lost his way. He did nothing of himself. He might |
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| have passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all things |
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| noble which he attempted, his own meanness shone |
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| most conspicuous. His airs, words, and actions, |
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| were the airs, words, and actions of born slave- |
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| holders, and, being assumed, were awkward enough. |
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| He was not even a good imitator. He possessed all |
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| the disposition to deceive, but wanted the power. |
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| Having no resources within himself, he was com- |
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| pelled to be the copyist of many, and being such, he |
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| was forever the victim of inconsistency; and of con- |
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| sequence he was an object of contempt, and was held |
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| as such even by his slaves. The luxury of having |
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| slaves of his own to wait upon him was something |
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| new and unprepared for. He was a slaveholder with- |
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| out the ability to hold slaves. He found himself in- |
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| capable of managing his slaves either by force, fear, |
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| or fraud. We seldom called him "master;" we gen- |
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| erally called him "Captain Auld," and were hardly |
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| disposed to title him at all. I doubt not that our |
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| conduct had much to do with making him appear |
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| awkward, and of consequence fretful. Our want of |
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| reverence for him must have perplexed him greatly. |
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| He wished to have us call him master, but lacked |
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| the firmness necessary to command us to do so. His |
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| wife used to insist upon our calling him so, but to |
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| no purpose. In August, 1832, my master attended a |
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| Methodist camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Tal- |
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| bot county, and there experienced religion. I in- |
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| dulged a faint hope that his conversion would lead |
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| him to emancipate his slaves, and that, if he did not |
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| do this, it would, at any rate, make him more kind |
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| and humane. I was disappointed in both these re- |
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| spects. It neither made him to be humane to his |
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| slaves, nor to emancipate them. If it had any effect |
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| on his character, it made him more cruel and hateful |
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| in all his ways; for I believe him to have been a much |
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| worse man after his conversion than before. Prior |
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| to his conversion, he relied upon his own depravity |
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| to shield and sustain him in his savage barbarity; |
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| but after his conversion, he found religious sanction |
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| and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He made |
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| the greatest pretensions to piety. His house was the |
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| house of prayer. He prayed morning, noon, and |
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| night. He very soon distinguished himself among |
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| his brethren, and was soon made a class-leader and |
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| exhorter. His activity in revivals was great, and he |
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| proved himself an instrument in the hands of the |
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| church in converting many souls. His house was the |
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| preachers' home. They used to take great pleasure |
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| in coming there to put up; for while he starved us, he |
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| stuffed them. We have had three or four preachers |
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| there at a time. The names of those who used to |
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| come most frequently while I lived there, were Mr. |
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| Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and Mr. Hickey. |
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| I have also seen Mr. George Cookman at our house. |
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| We slaves loved Mr. Cookman. We believed him to |
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| be a good man. We thought him instrumental in get- |
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| ting Mr. Samuel Harrison, a very rich slaveholder, to |
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| emancipate his slaves; and by some means got the |
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| impression that he was laboring to effect the emanci- |
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| pation of all the slaves. When he was at our house, |
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| we were sure to be called in to prayers. When the |
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| others were there, we were sometimes called in and |
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| sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of |
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| us than either of the other ministers. He could not |
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| come among us without betraying his sympathy for |
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| us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity to |
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| see it. |
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Master would keep this lacerated young woman |
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| tied up in this horrid situation four or five hours at |
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| a time. I have known him to tie her up early in the |
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| morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave her, |
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| go to his store, return at dinner, and whip her again, |
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| cutting her in the places already made raw with his |
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| cruel lash. The secret of master's cruelty toward |
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| "Henny" is found in the fact of her being almost |
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| helpless. When quite a child, she fell into the fire, |
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| and burned herself horribly. Her hands were so |
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| burnt that she never got the use of them. She could |
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| do very little but bear heavy burdens. She was to |
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| master a bill of expense; and as he was a mean man, |
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| she was a constant offence to him. He seemed |
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| desirous of getting the poor girl out of existence. |
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| He gave her away once to his sister; but, being a |
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| poor gift, she was not disposed to keep her. Finally, |
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| my benevolent master, to use his own words, "set |
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| her adrift to take care of herself." Here was a re- |
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| cently-converted man, holding on upon the mother, |
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| and at the same time turning out her helpless child, |
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| to starve and die! Master Thomas was one of the |
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| many pious slaveholders who hold slaves for the |
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| very charitable purpose of taking care of them. |
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My master and myself had quite a number of |
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| differences. He found me unsuitable to his purpose. |
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| My city life, he said, had had a very pernicious effect |
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| upon me. It had almost ruined me for every good |
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| purpose, and fitted me for every thing which was |
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| bad. One of my greatest faults was that of letting |
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| his horse run away, and go down to his father-in- |
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| law's farm, which was about five miles from St. |
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| Michael's. I would then have to go after it. My |
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| reason for this kind of carelessness, or carefulness, |
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| was, that I could always get something to eat when |
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| I went there. Master William Hamilton, my master's |
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| father-in-law, always gave his slaves enough to eat. |
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| I never left there hungry, no matter how great the |
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| need of my speedy return. Master Thomas at length |
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| said he would stand it no longer. I had lived with |
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| him nine months, during which time he had given |
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| me a number of severe whippings, all to no good |
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| purpose. He resolved to put me out, as he said, to |
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| be broken; and, for this purpose, he let me for one |
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| year to a man named Edward Covey. Mr. Covey |
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| was a poor man, a farm-renter. He rented the place |
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| upon which he lived, as also the hands with which |
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| he tilled it. Mr. Covey had acquired a very high |
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| reputation for breaking young slaves, and this repu- |
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| tation was of immense value to him. It enabled him |
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| to get his farm tilled with much less expense to |
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| himself than he could have had it done without |
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| such a reputation. Some slaveholders thought it not |
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| much loss to allow Mr. Covey to have their slaves |
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| one year, for the sake of the training to which they |
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| were subjected, without any other compensation. |
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| He could hire young help with great ease, in con- |
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| sequence of this reputation. Added to the natural |
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| good qualities of Mr. Covey, he was a professor of |
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| religion—a pious soul—a member and a class-leader in |
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| the Methodist church. All of this added weight to |
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| his reputation as a "nigger-breaker." I was aware of |
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| all the facts, having been made acquainted with |
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| them by a young man who had lived there. I never- |
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| theless made the change gladly; for I was sure of |
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| getting enough to eat, which is not the smallest |
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| consideration to a hungry man. |
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