Part I, Section 2: LOVE.
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| MINE. | |
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| | Mine by the right of the white election! | |
| | Mine by the royal seal! | |
| | Mine by the sign in the scarlet prison | 5 | |
| | Bars cannot conceal! | |
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| | Mine, here in vision and in veto! | |
| | Mine, by the grave's repeal | |
| | Titled, confirmed,—delirious charter! | |
| | Mine, while the ages steal! | 10 | |
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| II. | |
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| BEQUEST. | |
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| | You left me, sweet, two legacies,— | |
| | A legacy of love | |
| | A Heavenly Father would content, | 15 | |
| | Had He the offer of; | |
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| | You left me boundaries of pain | |
| | Capacious as the sea, | |
| | Between eternity and time, | |
| | Your consciousness and me. | 20 | |
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| | Alter? When the hills do. | |
| | Falter? When the sun | |
| | Question if his glory | |
| | Be the perfect one. | 25 | |
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| | Surfeit? When the daffodil | |
| | Doth of the dew: | |
| | Even as herself, O friend! | |
| | I will of you! | |
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| IV. | 30 | |
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| SUSPENSE. | |
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| | Elysium is as far as to | |
| | The very nearest room, | |
| | If in that room a friend await | |
| | Felicity or doom. | 35 | |
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| | What fortitude the soul contains, | |
| | That it can so endure | |
| | The accent of a coming foot, | |
| | The opening of a door! | |
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| V. | 40 | |
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| SURRENDER. | |
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| | Doubt me, my dim companion! | |
| | Why, God would be content | |
| | With but a fraction of the love | |
| | Poured thee without a stint. | 45 | |
| | The whole of me, forever, | |
| | What more the woman can,— | |
| | Say quick, that I may dower thee | |
| | With last delight I own! | |
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| | It cannot be my spirit, | 50 | |
| | For that was thine before; | |
| | I ceded all of dust I knew,— | |
| | What opulence the more | |
| | Had I, a humble maiden, | |
| | Whose farthest of degree | 55 | |
| | Was that she might, | |
| | Some distant heaven, | |
| | Dwell timidly with thee! | |
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| VI. | |
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| | IF you were coming in the fall, | 60 | |
| | I'd brush the summer by | |
| | With half a smile and half a spurn, | |
| | As housewives do a fly. | |
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| | If I could see you in a year, | |
| | I'd wind the months in balls, | 65 | |
| | And put them each in separate drawers, | |
| | Until their time befalls. | |
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| | If only centuries delayed, | |
| | I'd count them on my hand, | |
| | Subtracting till my fingers dropped | 70 | |
| | Into Van Diemen's land. | |
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| | If certain, when this life was out, | |
| | That yours and mine should be, | |
| | I'd toss it yonder like a rind, | |
| | And taste eternity. | 75 | |
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| | But now, all ignorant of the length | |
| | Of time's uncertain wing, | |
| | It goads me, like the goblin bee, | |
| | That will not state its sting. | |
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| VII. | 80 | |
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| WITH A FLOWER. | |
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| | I hide myself within my flower, | |
| | That wearing on your breast, | |
| | You, unsuspecting, wear me too— | |
| | And angels know the rest. | 85 | |
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| | I hide myself within my flower, | |
| | That, fading from your vase, | |
| | You, unsuspecting, feel for me | |
| | Almost a loneliness. | |
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| VIII. | 90 | |
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| PROOF. | |
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| | That I did always love, | |
| | I bring thee proof: | |
| | That till I loved | |
| | I did not love enough. | 95 | |
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| | That I shall love alway, | |
| | I offer thee | |
| | That love is life, | |
| | And life hath immortality. | |
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| | This, dost thou doubt, sweet? | 100 | |
| | Then have I | |
| | Nothing to show | |
| | But Calvary. | |
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| IX. | |
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| | Have you got a brook in your little heart, | 105 | |
| | Where bashful flowers blow, | |
| | And blushing birds go down to drink, | |
| | And shadows tremble so? | |
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| | And nobody knows, so still it flows, | |
| | That any brook is there; | 110 | |
| | And yet your little draught of life | |
| | Is daily drunken there. | |
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| | Then look out for the little brook in March, | |
| | When the rivers overflow, | |
| | And the snows come hurrying from the hills, | 115 | |
| | And the bridges often go. | |
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| | And later, in August it may be, | |
| | When the meadows parching lie, | |
| | Beware, lest this little brook of life | |
| | Some burning noon go dry! | 120 | |
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| TRANSPLANTED. | |
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| | As if some little Arctic flower, | |
| | Upon the polar hem, | |
| | Went wandering down the latitudes, | 125 | |
| | Until it puzzled came | |
| | To continents of summer, | |
| | To firmaments of sun, | |
| | To strange, bright crowds of flowers, | |
| | And birds of foreign tongue! | 130 | |
| | I say, as if this little flower | |
| | To Eden wandered in— | |
| | What then? Why, nothing, only, | |
| | Your inference therefrom! | |
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| XI. | 135 | |
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| THE OUTLET. | |
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| | My river runs to thee: | |
| | Blue sea, wilt welcome me? | |
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| | My river waits reply. | |
| | Oh sea, look graciously! | 140 | |
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| | I'll fetch thee brooks | |
| | From spotted nooks,— | |
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| XII. | 145 | |
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| IN VAIN. | |
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| | I CANNOT live with you, | |
| | It would be life, | |
| | And life is over there | |
| | Behind the shelf | 150 | |
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| | The sexton keeps the key to, | |
| | Putting up | |
| | Our life, his porcelain, | |
| | Like a cup | |
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| | Discarded of the housewife, | 155 | |
| | Quaint or broken; | |
| | A newer Sevres pleases, | |
| | Old ones crack. | |
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| | I could not die with you, | |
| | For one must wait | 160 | |
| | To shut the other's gaze down,— | |
| | You could not. | |
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| | And I, could I stand by | |
| | And see you freeze, | |
| | Without my right of frost, | 165 | |
| | Death's privilege? | |
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| | Nor could I rise with you, | |
| | Because your face | |
| | Would put out Jesus', | |
| | That new grace | 170 | |
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| | Glow plain and foreign | |
| | On my homesick eye, | |
| | Except that you, than he | |
| | Shone closer by. | |
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| | They'd judge us—how? | 175 | |
| | For you served Heaven, you know, | |
| | Or sought to; | |
| | I could not, | |
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| | Because you saturated sight, | |
| | And I had no more eyes | 180 | |
| | For sordid excellence | |
| | As Paradise. | |
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| | And were you lost, I would be, | |
| | Though my name | |
| | Rang loudest | 185 | |
| | On the heavenly fame. | |
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| | And were you saved, | |
| | And I condemned to be | |
| | Where you were not, | |
| | That self were hell to me. | 190 | |
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| | So we must keep apart, | |
| | You there, I here, | |
| | With just the door ajar | |
| | That oceans are, | |
| | And prayer, | 195 | |
| | And that pale sustenance, | |
| | Despair! | |
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| RENUNCIATION. | |
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| | There came a day at summer's full | 200 | |
| | Entirely for me; | |
| | I thought that such were for the saints, | |
| | Where revelations be. | |
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| | The sun, as common, went abroad, | |
| | The flowers, accustomed, blew, | 205 | |
| | As if no soul the solstice passed | |
| | That maketh all things new. | |
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| | The time was scarce profaned by speech; | |
| | The symbol of a word | |
| | Was needless, as at sacrament | 210 | |
| | The wardrobe of our Lord. | |
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| | Each was to each the sealed church, | |
| | Permitted to commune this time, | |
| | Lest we too awkward show | |
| | At supper of the Lamb. | 215 | |
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| | The hours slid fast, as hours will, | |
| | Clutched tight by greedy hands; | |
| | So faces on two decks look back, | |
| | Bound to opposing lands. | |
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| | And so, when all the time had failed, | 220 | |
| | Without external sound, | |
| | Each bound the other's crucifix, | |
| | We gave no other bond. | |
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| | Sufficient troth that we shall rise— | |
| | Deposed, at length, the grave— | 225 | |
| | To that new marriage, justified | |
| | Through Calvaries of Love! | |
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| XIV. | |
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| LOVE'S BAPTISM. | |
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| | I'm ceded, I've stopped being theirs; | 230 | |
| | The name they dropped upon my face | |
| | With water, in the country church, | |
| | Is finished using now, | |
| | And they can put it with my dolls, | |
| | My childhood, and the string of spools | 235 | |
| | I've finished threading too. | |
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| | Baptized before without the choice, | |
| | But this time consciously, of grace | |
| | Unto supremest name, | |
| | Called to my full, the crescent dropped, | 240 | |
| | Existence's whole arc filled up | |
| | With one small diadem. | |
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| | My second rank, too small the first, | |
| | Crowned, crowing on my father's breast, | |
| | A half unconscious queen; | 245 | |
| | But this time, adequate, erect, | |
| | With will to choose or to reject. | |
| | And I choose—just a throne. | |
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| RESURRECTION. | 250 | |
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| | 'T was a long parting, but the time | |
| | For interview had come; | |
| | Before the judgment-seat of God, | |
| | The last and second time | |
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| | These fleshless lovers met, | 255 | |
| | A heaven in a gaze, | |
| | A heaven of heavens, the privilege | |
| | Of one another's eyes. | |
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| | No lifetime set on them, | |
| | Apparelled as the new | 260 | |
| | Unborn, except they had beheld, | |
| | Born everlasting now. | |
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| | Was bridal e'er like this? | |
| | A paradise, the host, | |
| | And cherubim and seraphim | 265 | |
| | The most familiar guest. | |
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| XVI. | |
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| APOCALYPSE. | |
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| | I'm wife; I've finished that, | |
| | That other state; | 270 | |
| | I'm Czar, I'm woman now: | |
| | It's safer so. | |
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| | How odd the girl's life looks | |
| | Behind this soft eclipse! | |
| | I think that earth seems so | 275 | |
| | To those in heaven now. | |
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| | This being comfort, then | |
| | That other kind was pain; | |
| | But why compare? | |
| | I'm wife! stop there! | 280 | |
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| XVII. | |
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| THE WIFE. | |
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| | She rose to his requirement, dropped | |
| | The playthings of her life | |
| | To take the honorable work | 285 | |
| | Of woman and of wife. | |
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| | If aught she missed in her new day | |
| | Of amplitude, or awe, | |
| | Or first prospective, or the gold | |
| | In using wore away, | 290 | |
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| | It lay unmentioned, as the sea | |
| | Develops pearl and weed, | |
| | But only to himself is known | |
| | The fathoms they abide. | |
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| XVIII. | 295 | |
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| APOTHEOSIS. | |
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| | Come slowly, Eden! | |
| | Lips unused to thee, | |
| | Bashful, sip thy jasmines, | |
| | As the fainting bee, | 300 | |
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| | Reaching late his flower, | |
| | Round her chamber hums, | |
| | Counts his nectars—enters, | |
| | And is lost in balms! | |
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