Part II, Section 2: LOVE.
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| CHOICE. | |
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| | Of all the souls that stand create | |
| | I have elected one. | |
| | When sense from spirit files away, | 5 | |
| | And subterfuge is done; | |
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| | When that which is and that which was | |
| | Apart, intrinsic, stand, | |
| | And this brief tragedy of flesh | |
| | Is shifted like a sand; | 10 | |
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| | When figures show their royal front | |
| | And mists are carved away,— | |
| | Behold the atom I preferred | |
| | To all the lists of clay! | |
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| II. | 15 | |
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| | I have no life but this, | |
| | To lead it here; | |
| | Nor any death, but lest | |
| | Dispelled from there; | |
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| | Nor tie to earths to come, | 20 | |
| | Nor action new, | |
| | Except through this extent, | |
| | The realm of you. | |
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| III. | |
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| | Your riches taught me poverty. | 25 | |
| | Myself a millionnaire | |
| | In little wealths,—as girls could boast,— | |
| | Till broad as Buenos Ayre, | |
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| | You drifted your dominions | |
| | A different Peru; | 30 | |
| | And I esteemed all poverty, | |
| | For life's estate with you. | |
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| | Of mines I little know, myself, | |
| | But just the names of gems,— | |
| | The colors of the commonest; | 35 | |
| | And scarce of diadems | |
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| | So much that, did I meet the queen, | |
| | Her glory I should know: | |
| | But this must be a different wealth, | |
| | To miss it beggars so. | 40 | |
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| | I 'm sure 't is India all day | |
| | To those who look on you | |
| | Without a stint, without a blame,— | |
| | Might I but be the Jew! | |
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| | I 'm sure it is Golconda, | 45 | |
| | Beyond my power to deem,— | |
| | To have a smile for mine each day, | |
| | How better than a gem! | |
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| | At least, it solaces to know | |
| | That there exists a gold, | 50 | |
| | Although I prove it just in time | |
| | Its distance to behold! | |
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| | It 's far, far treasure to surmise, | |
| | And estimate the pearl | |
| | That slipped my simple fingers through | 55 | |
| | While just a girl at school! | |
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| IV. | |
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| THE CONTRACT. | |
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| | I gave myself to him, | |
| | And took himself for pay. | 60 | |
| | The solemn contract of a life | |
| | Was ratified this way. | |
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| | The wealth might disappoint, | |
| | Myself a poorer prove | |
| | Than this great purchaser suspect, | 65 | |
| | The daily own of Love | |
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| | Depreciate the vision; | |
| | But, till the merchant buy, | |
| | Still fable, in the isles of spice, | |
| | The subtle cargoes lie. | 70 | |
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| | At least, 't is mutual risk,— | |
| | Some found it mutual gain; | |
| | Sweet debt of Life,—each night to owe, | |
| | Insolvent, every noon. | |
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| V. | 75 | |
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| THE LETTER. | |
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| | "GOING to him! Happy letter! Tell him— | |
| | Tell him the page I did n't write; | |
| | Tell him I only said the syntax, | |
| | And left the verb and the pronoun out. | 80 | |
| | Tell him just how the fingers hurried, | |
| | Then how they waded, slow, slow, slow; | |
| | And then you wished you had eyes in your pages, | |
| | So you could see what moved them so. | |
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| | "Tell him it was n't a practised writer, | 85 | |
| | You guessed, from the way the sentence toiled; | |
| | You could hear the bodice tug, behind you, | |
| | As if it held but the might of a child; | |
| | You almost pitied it, you, it worked so. | |
| | Tell him—No, you may quibble there, | 90 | |
| | For it would split his heart to know it, | |
| | And then you and I were silenter. | |
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| | "Tell him night finished before we finished, | |
| | And the old clock kept neighing 'day!' | |
| | And you got sleepy and begged to be ended— | 95 | |
| | What could it hinder so, to say? | |
| | Tell him just how she sealed you, cautious, | |
| | But if he ask where you are hid | |
| | Until to-morrow,—happy letter! | |
| | Gesture, coquette, and shake your head!" | 100 | |
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| VI. | |
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| | The way I read a letter 's this: | |
| | 'T is first I lock the door, | |
| | And push it with my fingers next, | |
| | For transport it be sure. | 105 | |
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| | And then I go the furthest off | |
| | To counteract a knock; | |
| | Then draw my little letter forth | |
| | And softly pick its lock. | |
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| | Then, glancing narrow at the wall, | 110 | |
| | And narrow at the floor, | |
| | For firm conviction of a mouse | |
| | Not exorcised before, | |
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| | Peruse how infinite I am | |
| | To—no one that you know! | 115 | |
| | And sigh for lack of heaven,—but not | |
| | The heaven the creeds bestow. | |
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| VII. | |
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| | Wild nights! Wild nights! | |
| | Were I with thee, | 120 | |
| | Wild nights should be | |
| | Our luxury! | |
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| | Futile the winds | |
| | To a heart in port,— | |
| | Done with the compass, | 125 | |
| | Done with the chart. | |
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| | Rowing in Eden! | |
| | Ah! the sea! | |
| | Might I but moor | |
| | To-night in thee! | 130 | |
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| VIII. | |
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| AT HOME. | |
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| | The night was wide, and furnished scant | |
| | With but a single star, | |
| | That often as a cloud it met | 135 | |
| | Blew out itself for fear. | |
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| | The wind pursued the little bush, | |
| | And drove away the leaves | |
| | November left; then clambered up | |
| | And fretted in the eaves. | 140 | |
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| | No squirrel went abroad; | |
| | A dog's belated feet | |
| | Like intermittent plush were heard | |
| | Adown the empty street. | |
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| | To feel if blinds be fast, | 145 | |
| | And closer to the fire | |
| | Her little rocking-chair to draw, | |
| | And shiver for the poor, | |
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| | The housewife's gentle task. | |
| | "How pleasanter," said she | 150 | |
| | Unto the sofa opposite, | |
| | "The sleet than May—no thee!" | |
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| IX. | |
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| POSSESSION. | |
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| | Did the harebell loose her girdle | 155 | |
| | To the lover bee, | |
| | Would the bee the harebell hallow | |
| | Much as formerly? | |
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| | Did the paradise, persuaded, | |
| | Yield her moat of pearl, | 160 | |
| | Would the Eden be an Eden, | |
| | Or the earl an earl? | |
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| X. | |
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| | A charm invests a face | |
| | Imperfectly beheld,— | 165 | |
| | The lady dare not lift her veil | |
| | For fear it be dispelled. | |
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| | But peers beyond her mesh, | |
| | And wishes, and denies,— | |
| | Lest interview annul a want | 170 | |
| | That image satisfies. | |
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| XI. | |
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| THE LOVERS. | |
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| | The rose did caper on her cheek, | |
| | Her bodice rose and fell, | 175 | |
| | Her pretty speech, like drunken men, | |
| | Did stagger pitiful. | |
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| | Her fingers fumbled at her work,— | |
| | Her needle would not go; | |
| | What ailed so smart a little maid | 180 | |
| | It puzzled me to know, | |
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| | Till opposite I spied a cheek | |
| | That bore another rose; | |
| | Just opposite, another speech | |
| | That like the drunkard goes; | 185 | |
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| | A vest that, like the bodice, danced | |
| | To the immortal tune,— | |
| | Till those two troubled little clocks | |
| | Ticked softly into one. | |
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| XII. | 190 | |
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| | In lands I never saw, they say, | |
| | Immortal Alps look down, | |
| | Whose bonnets touch the firmament, | |
| | Whose sandals touch the town,— | |
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| | Meek at whose everlasting feet | 195 | |
| | A myriad daisies play. | |
| | Which, sir, are you, and which am I, | |
| | Upon an August day? | |
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| XIII. | |
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| | The moon is distant from the sea, | 200 | |
| | And yet with amber hands | |
| | She leads him, docile as a boy, | |
| | Along appointed sands. | |
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| | He never misses a degree; | |
| | Obedient to her eye, | 205 | |
| | He comes just so far toward the town, | |
| | Just so far goes away. | |
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| | Oh, Signor, thine the amber hand, | |
| | And mine the distant sea,— | |
| | Obedient to the least command | 210 | |
| | Thine eyes impose on me. | |
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| XIV. | |
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| | He put the belt around my life,— | |
| | I heard the buckle snap, | |
| | And turned away, imperial, | 215 | |
| | My lifetime folding up | |
| | Deliberate, as a duke would do | |
| | A kingdom's title-deed,— | |
| | Henceforth a dedicated sort, | |
| | A member of the cloud. | 220 | |
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| | Yet not too far to come at call, | |
| | And do the little toils | |
| | That make the circuit of the rest, | |
| | And deal occasional smiles | |
| | To lives that stoop to notice mine | 225 | |
| | And kindly ask it in,— | |
| | Whose invitation, knew you not | |
| | For whom I must decline? | |
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| XV. | |
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| THE LOST JEWEL. | 230 | |
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| | I held a jewel in my fingers | |
| | And went to sleep. | |
| | The day was warm, and winds were prosy; | |
| | I said: "'T will keep." | |
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| | I woke and chid my honest fingers,— | 235 | |
| | The gem was gone; | |
| | And now an amethyst remembrance | |
| | Is all I own. | |
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| XVI. | |
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| | What if I say I shall not wait? | 240 | |
| | What if I burst the fleshly gate | |
| | And pass, escaped, to thee? | |
| | What if I file this mortal off, | |
| | See where it hurt me,—that 's enough,— | |
| | And wade in liberty? | 245 | |
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| | They cannot take us any more,— | |
| | Dungeons may call, and guns implore; | |
| | Unmeaning now, to me, | |
| | As laughter was an hour ago, | |
| | Or laces, or a travelling show, | 250 | |
| | Or who died yesterday! | |
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